I just want to escape.
I’m pretty 100% sure that my friend hates me, if she’s even my friend anymore.
Only one more month until the quarter ends. I find it kinda nice that you get to start over so quickly within the year.
There is nothing wrong with wanting attention. It doesn’t make you selfish. It doesn’t make you desperate or pathetic or weak. It makes you human. We all want to be noticed. We all need to feel seen and heard and valued. And we all deserve to have those needs met. You are no exception. You deserve to take up space. You deserve to be acknowledged and loved and cared for. You deserve to shine. Don’t let anyone, including yourself, convince you otherwise.
As a human being, it’s only natural to wish for recognition for your hard work and attempts, especially from family and friends, or especially from your own parents. But they will sometimes never acknowledge them, no matter how hard you push and fall and get up and scrape yourself and heal and persevere. My own father is a perfect example to this truth. But, chances are that once in a while something will go noticed, even in a delayed manner. But, in the meantime, find recognition in yourself. Find that moment of complete and utter truth within yourself when you narrate: “I am a human being. I am far from perfect, but at least I’ve tried. Every day I have risen and walked has been an achievement that many others have not accomplished. I have my whole life to figure things out. I am intelligent and I have strength of will and I have gotten this far and I acknowledge myself to being great.” Once that moment happens, you will no longer care so much for what others think or say and you will do things for you and search for new horizons for you and you will work hard and learn all you can for you. Come to terms with the fact that not everyone will see your accomplishments, but remember that they are trying to accomplish their own things because they are human too.
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I had an amazing day today :)